Designed to feed on God Himself

Recently, I have been reading "Mere Christianity" by C.S. Lewis. I read somthing today that really ministered to me and I thought I would share it.

"God made us: invented us as a man invents an engine. A car is made to run on petrol, and it would not run properly on anything else. Now God designed the human machine to run on Himself. He Himself is the fuel our spirits were designed to burn, or the food our spirits were designed to feed on. There is no other. That is why it is just no good asking god to make us happy in our own way without bothering about religion. God cannot give us happiness and peace apart from Himself, because it is not there. There is no such thing."

I need to feed on Him. I have felt unsatisfied for a while now in my spirit. I just dont have the hours I used to have to pray and read and dig deep into the word. I have been so tired, with moving to a new house, being in my last trimester of pregnancy, taking care of Elisha... It seems there is always somthing. When I finally do have some time alone, I am so tired that I just want to rest, take a shower, or maybe make myself somthing to eat. But what the Lord has been showing me is that its all about my heart. I have felt so condemed that spiritually things arent the way that they used to be.

This week I have been trying to read the word, and just do little things here and there that feed my spirit. Maybe I cant read chapters and chapters and do alot of word studies. But maybe I can have my bible open while I feed the baby and read some. Maybe I can listen to woship music and worship while I cook, or clean and put things away.

It has been so freeing.

I have been noticing that as I make these efforts to seek the Lord and glorify Him even in the small and humble ways, he has been meeting with me. Yesterday someone shared with me this scripture:

"He tends his flock like a shepherd He gathers the lambs in his arms
and carries them close to his heart; he gently leads those that have young..."

Isaiah 40:11

I am so thankful He is my shepherd. He has my little family gathered in his arms. He is carring me close to his heart and gently leading me... I want even more hunger for him. I want to feed on Him and burn for Him all day. Even if it doesnt seem to look like it has in the past. I want to burn and breathe in your glory Lord.